Writing My Little Cowboy

    Have you ever met someone that looked familiar, but you knew that you have never met before? Or, have you ever had a waking dream that seemed so real that you would swear that it was a memory? That is exactly what happened to me! In my new book, "My Little Cowboy" I write about a life lived in the 1800's. Writing this book was one of the most difficult things I've ever done. As a child, I was plagued with recurring nightmares that made no sense to me. Eventually I got use to the nightmares and sought to understand them. Things seemed to settle down until 2005 when I met a person that turned my world upside down. I recognized him. I knew that we must have met before. But my rational mind told me that I could never have met him before - it was impossible. The only rational explanation was that I'd met him in another life - a previous life. I had always been open to the concept of reincarnation before, but now I was convinced.

    At the time, I did not realize that meeting someone from my "past" would disrupt my life so profoundly. For seven years, I suffered from recollections that originated from that previous life. The memories were intimately connected to very painful emotions. I felt like I'd stirred up memories that were better forgotten. Even so, I'd opened my Pandora's box of memories and I had no choice but to work to resolve the ensuing chaos. When I completed "My Little Cowboy," I learned things about me that I never knew existed.

    I learned that I had unresolved issues that I had tolerated in my life. I had learned long ago how to suppress the bad feelings. I found that to live a happy fruitful life, I had to deal with these issues. At first, I thought that I needed to resolve my issues with my estranged friend, but the resolution was actually to integrate my "past life" issues into this life and then change my focus to the here and now. I learned that all relationship issues can be corrected by looking within. I also learned that memories are best left in the past, unless one is interested in re-living the trials and tribulations associated with those memories. The cool thing about reliving trials and tribulations is that we can learn new lessons as long as we stay focused (and grounded) in the present. I wrote the book and realized how fortunate I was to have lived a tumultuous life to write about - even though it was a past-life. I can hardly wait to write a book about this life.